The right to exist

Did I do something wrong?
Did I… do something wrong? Did I?
… I did… right?

They left me. People… they… left me.
No. I‘m withdrawing before it can even start.
But why? Why am I doing that? Am I afraid?
Afraid of what? Afraid of being lynched?
Afraid of being driven away?
Afraid of losing myself? Afraid to… die?
Am I afraid? Yes… Yes, I am. I am scared. more “The right to exist”

A message to a dear past friend

Mamoru… Where are you? Why did you go? What happened? Why did you reject me without explaining it to me? You told my cousin, I would have clung too much and that you couldn’t handle the way I was or maybe how I still am.

Thinking of you, I feel safe, imagining being in your arms, knowing though that you wouldn’t want to embrace me like that. Am I abusing you when I am doing that nonetheless? Mamoru… I need you… so much. I need your protection, your understanding, and your confidence, your faithfulness. more “A message to a dear past friend”

Healing — A child’s story

Chapter 1 — A light in the darkness

Somewhere on this planet, there is a very, very dark place. There, you can see nothing, but blackness, which seems to devour everything.

In this place, there is nothing, no one. No one, but one child. That child, you see, isn’t moving. It is sitting in the darkest corner of the room, its head laying between his bent knees, as it is staring into the dark void. It is neither screaming nor crying. It sits and stares, doing nothing. It has no energy left to move a single bone. Time doesn’t flow and so it never ends. more “Healing — A child’s story”

The heart has many meanings

The heart or what some call the soul has many meanings. I’ll refer to it here as the heart as the meanings are found in the word itself.

Heart – Either the physical or spiritual heart
Hear ‘t – When we separate Hear and t and add an apostrophe it says: Hear ‘t, so Hear it.
H-ear-t – The h being like the breath or sound and ear literally being the organ we hear with. So to me the word hear means: Perceiving sound with the ear. And the t we can either remove or treat it as it, just like before, the it refering to the h, the sound. more “The heart has many meanings”

My Core Values and what they could mean


I got inspired to write about core values and what they could mean. Watching an Anime called Digimon inspires me a lot. Core values are essential in that show. And I think values are vital to us as well to know where to go in life and what to do, where we want to invest our energy into. So, I want to write down important values to me and share it with all of you. But of course, these are just the ones I see as valuable and as important. more “My Core Values and what they could mean”